08.19.03

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my cousin, Kavin!

Today was a busy day for me. Aric, Ashlyn, and I are going to NorCal tomorrow, and I needed to get some things done before we leave...cleaning, laundry, gardening, yard work, and packing. It's kind of a spontaneous trip. The great thing about this trip is that Aric will be with us. He didn't get to spend much time with my family the last time he went up, so we're really looking forward to it. =)

I had a vivid dream last night of an ex-love...and it's been haunting me all day. The clarity of the dream was scary. I can still remember feeling the gentle breeze against my face and hair, the light scent of his cologne, his bright smile, the softness in his eyes, the way he draped his arm over my shoulder. For the most part, the dream was like a silent movie: a montage of happiness. No words were spoken, but the feelings were very intense. I was deeply in love... and right before he leaned in for a kiss, I woke up. To have those feelings disappear in an instant made me feel incredibly sad and heartbroken...and then reality set in, and I felt extremely guilty. *sigh*
The dream haunts me because I have not spoken to the ex-love since we broke up eons ago. Fleeting thoughts made me curious of his whereabouts and what he's doing. It made me wonder what would have happened if I had made different choices in the past. Of course I don't regret any of it. I know I wouldn't want to know life without all the experiences I've had since then and all the people I've encountered along the way.
In any case, I have to remind myself that it was just a dream...only a dream. Besides, I believe I have fonder memories of him than he does of me. =P

Tonight a bunch of us went to dinner at Chevy's (kids eat free on Tuesdays). hehehe
Ashlyn sat next to Liv at the table...and instantly wanted to be just like Liv - a "baby". She wanted to eat cheerios (just like Liv), she wanted to be fed water by the strawful (just like Liv), she wanted to squeal and wave her arms in a frenzy (just like Liv). *sigh*
Peg: "Ashlyn, you're not a baby...you're a big girl now."
Ashlyn: *pout* "NO!"
Aric: "Ashlyn wants to be a baby?"
Ashlyn: *smiling* "Yeth!"
Peg: *shake head*

Ashlyn was back to being herself once her food came. HAHAHAHA! She ate most of her dinner and ALL of her ice cream. =)
After dinner, we went back to James and Grace's to hang out. We didn't get back till midnight.

I still have to finish folding laundry and pack. *YAWN* I'm so tired. Anyhow, pictures and journals will resume when I get back. Bye!

Pictures from tonight:

Liv's big smile!

Sue, Ed, and Liv

James, Lauren, and Grace

me, Ashlyn, and Aric