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08.15.02 Why the hell am I so tired these days? I hate to think that it's all because of Ashlyn...if so, I have a long tough road ahead of me. *sigh* It's not like I don't get enough sleep either...I've gotten more zzzzz's than I have in a long time. Weird. =/ Anyhow, today was the same as the past few days. Just stayed home with Ashlyn, did stuff around the house, watched TV....you know, same ol' same ol'. I've been meaning to go visit Grace, Lauren, and Baby Taylor, but I lag and I lag and before you know it...it gets too late. Grace is staying at her parent's place for the remainder of the month, so I don't want to intrude during lunch or dinner. Maybe I'll go tomorrow. I've
been having "baby" dreams lately. The other night I dreamt
that I was pregnant and going into labor. I was far from a hospital
and my old boss had to help deliver my baby. The contractions felt
very real, and I kept thinking, "What?...no epidural?!"
But I did fine. The dream was horrifying because in real life, my
old boss is an idiot. And last night I dreamt that I was shopping
for maternity clothes and Ashlyn was like 5 years old or something.
She helped me pick out clothes and wanted to get a matching outfit.
She even wanted me to stuff a small pillow down the front of her pants
so she could have a matching belly too! HAHAHAHA! She was so cute!
But I was relieved to wake up and see that she was still little. Tonight Aric and I had a nice dinner and watched TV. We watched "Jamie Kennedy Experiment", "Will & Grace", "Off Centre", and the news. I know it sounds terribly boring, but it's so nice to have Aric all to myself this week. Usually he's so busy every night setting up computers, or working on this or that, or working with the fellas, that we hardly have any time to ourselves. As my mom would say, "Small sacrifices now, big rewards later." Sonny thinks that what I'm doing to Ashlyn is like the Truman Show. Yeah, I guess so. But I'll probably stop posting her pictures and writing about her after she passes all her huge milestones (ie..sprouting teeth, walking, talking, etc..). It's just a nice way of journaling her growth. I got one of those baby memory books from my baby shower, and I think I only jotted down a couple of things and stopped. With those books, you write as you go along...and sometimes I forget. This way, once Ashlyn passes all of those milestones, I can go back and fill out the book completely. Well, I'm pooped and I'm going to bed! G'Nite!
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